GONE WITH THE WIND

2011-11-04T20:14:00.001-07:00

this is when staying in melbourne IS SO MUCH BETTER!.

2011-09-13T06:51:00.001-07:00

school has made me not want to use facebook anymore. there sld be a seperate networking site dedicating to school. omg then life would be awesome. and i;m ranting here because i can't rant on FB cos EVERYbody in school will see it and yeah. oh well. the minute i am FINISHED with this course, out goes all the dumb contacts.

2011-03-15T04:43:00.001-07:00

part of me is missing it, part of me is saying MOVE ON.

2011-02-06T06:13:00.000-08:00

okay... one post after quite an happy emo day.

Leaving is going to be tough. but yeah i think i'm up to it. i have to tell myself so. It ain't as bad as it seems. I know Mr Jesus will guide me there.

I guess it really striked me when Baby Daniel cried. i thought he was crying cos he was having a whiny day... but nah... he cried cos he's an affectionate boy (according to melissa)... initially i was kinda like oh shit he is crying... but when i found out why, i couldn't help but cry too.. it's like he's 2.5yrs old and he understands all these emo stuff?! WTH! but yeah... seeing him cry made my heart ache. really ache.

I knew i'll be leaving since who knows how long ago... and every sunday worship would always end up in tears... but tt only happened during sundays. but now i think it's really sinking in... come on, it's only 4 days left.

but yeah i can't bear to leave? In a way i was looking forward to running away.. away from everything here.. glad that i had a door open. like perfect opportunity. but now... it's starting to turn the other way round. Especially after musical. like all the friendships that were lost have been built again and now it's time to leave it again. even the relationships with the adults. it sucks.

but i know all i need is to hear from you.

2010-04-26T05:35:00.000-07:00

Oh man. i Miss my little kiddos. My Sunday School Kids. Miss the little once. so innocent so nice to talk to so huggable so nice just to see.

A fellow Sunday School teacher just said "I always remember you as Rachel's baby sister when I was teaching her in Pri 2 and now you are a young lady ..wow! Time flies and you are teaching my son."...

like omg!!!! that means that was when i was 5!!!!! that's around her son's age. but yes her son is mischevious but oh man so cute! love looking at him trying to memorise his memory verse to get a goodie! and you just need to push him step by step and he'll do it! maybe he'll whine a little but he will eventually make it and you'll see the smile on his face. the "AH HAH! I DID IT!.... now do i get a sweet?"

hehe and Caitlyn!!! one day i saw her about to cry and i thought it was because she cldn;t find mummy so QUICKLY run to her CALL HER NAME and... suddenly all seemed okay. OMG. and nico jie said "didn;t know she knew you so well" smth like that la! the funniest thing is I ALSO DIDN"T KNOW!!! and according to her dad, uncle ian, she was looking for ME!like omg amazing. hehe and yes of course i chatted with her! :)

so nice. happy little sunday school teacher. tt's what i am :)

2010-03-25T06:02:00.001-07:00

you can say today was the worst day.

not that anything went bad/wrong...

it's just the feeling, allowing my emotions get the better of me.

but TGIF tomorrow.

2010-02-25T07:18:00.001-08:00

Dear Mr Jesus. please teach and guide me.

sometimes you really don't know what to do. but I'm sure God will lead.

oh well.

2010-02-07T06:04:00.000-08:00

Little Baby Daniel.

okay not that little anymore! but yes he was just sooooo cute today.

During the ending song, Melissa brought him to near where i was sitting in the sanctuary, to be exact, behind me! =)

s like super happy already la!

but yeah decided not to say hi yet and let holy communion finish first...

but thennnnnnn.... i suddenly saw this small figure looking up at me

and yes it was BABY DANIEL!!! wooohoo!!! wondered if he regconised my back and wondered "heyy.. is that jiejie michelle?".... super cool!

and yeah melissa was saying how he would count 1,2,3 and then "w" there's not four five six although he knew how to count to ten already! super de duper cute! and him trying to SING... omg.

so yeap it was an hour of playing with baby daniel. haven't played with a little kiddo for THAT long in a longggg longggg time. after that i was just super tired!!

nest week i'm gonna aim to take a photo with him!

2010-01-21T05:04:00.000-08:00

omg..

after the exercise i feel kinda down?

today was OMGISH!!!!

like in the morning i received a call asking if i can go down for a interview in the EVENING!

and yes of course i said yes.

though really i had ALOT of school stuff to do. like ALOT.

i actually felt stressed out.

what more is after the hard work, you still get dissed. like omg... give me more encouragement man. i know it may not be perfect but hey.. FIRST time doing it.

so yeah i just felt lousy right before an interview.

and yes i had to walk up the 9 flights os stairs in my AHPEK shirt. had no time to change to the nicer shirt for the interview. was dripping WET. body ACHING cos of NAPFA the day before.

thinking maybe it will be better... but nah...

cos the atmos and feelings are all different.

the people DO matter. and yeah kinda disappointed.

like supposed friends there are not really friends =(

yes it IS sad. or thats how i feel la. heh.

All i know now is that my body is REALLY aching. REALLY.

2010-01-06T07:04:00.000-08:00

maybe you should tell me what to do.
everythig seems to be going wrong today. at school or at work. with friends or with family or should i even say enemies/friendnemies?

oh well.. you try to do your job/fullfill your role yet kena left right center from everybody. sometimes it's just nice to have someone who'll say hi or who even acknowledges your presence. but oh well...

part of me feel glad that i;m gonna move on to the next phase of my life. yet part of me feels super itimidated. like what do i expect? or what job should i be starting to look out for. or which uni i should go to. BEST.

thinking post has made me sleepy and ready to go to dreamland. just as planned.

2009-12-11T07:47:00.001-08:00

this week has been kinda terrible?

if i were asked to sum up this week and pick the emotion I felt the most, it would be hurt? maybe mixed with a bit of anger.

but yeah. the week has totally been YUCKY> and being sick didn't help AT ALL.

whatever you say, whatever you do has been misunderstood. you try to be more friendly, more accepting, more encouraging... but nvm it's okay.. stop trying because you know the outcome will be a "FAILED attempt">

You think it's easy? I can tell you it's not. Maybe you'll try one day and tell me hurhur.... oh well

but yeah it's okay again.. because even if you do feel shitty, you have to act like all is well. that's the best part. You have the get that stupid emotion out of you so that you can focus on other better stuff. When everybody else just.....

you feel like running to somebody, but you realize hey, either they cannot be bothered, cannot understand whatever is going on.. or just simply owns too big a mouth. HEH. or worst till some act like they care shit loads but actually they're just there to gather information to... you know... maybe add a bit of their own creative juices and dramatize the whole situation.

okay nvm SIDETRACK.

did transcribing today! and i must say i had my fun! really, work is the only SHIT thing that gives me the sense of achievement.

yeah though i was sick i still had to go to school... totally couldn't be bothered to smile at lecturers cos i just had no energy to and least i be called a boot licker. HURHUR

but yeah that just sums up my whole week. sucky much but had to go through it.. i guess it would stick with me for quite some time...

I'll never be able the questions asked by ang truthfully. cos i myself cannot give a definite answer. Just enjoy the rest of it. =)

2009-12-09T06:23:00.001-08:00

Ah night out with friends! or should i say nightS.
First with Sharon and Peijun... super high people! and then today with Beat Mel and Chewchew. i must say i had my fun! though it was horrible being sick especially this morning. even climbing up the stairs was a reallll torture. like REAL.

but yeah the best part was seeing people grow. heh. loveee seeing people grow. maybe that'swhy i love my kiddies so much! =)

but yeah "hope you all are enjoying TEP". was that a trick question or what...

It's amazing how people can just use you without you even knowing. just to fish out info from you and once they got it, they throw you FAR FAR away.. they don't even bother to keep that friendship -.- you try to be nice and tlak to them or should i say TRY to tlak to them.. but nahhhh... it doesn't work. people ask you to go talk to the person.. and you heed their advice... yet still the other party just ignores. like WTH!
this kind of attitude I also don't wanna talk to you man! here i am trying... there you are showing me how sian you are and your freakking DAOness..

Well i guess that's the difference. URGH. just gets me pissed.

2009-11-17T04:58:00.000-08:00

Thank you Dear Mr Jesus! =)

Well these two weeks have been hectic but good. Indeed you feel so blessed. =)

went back to office today.. and yes feeling sad once again. but that feelings always there when i go back. but however still thankful i managed to talk to them! caught up so so much! so glad the lecturers allowed me to go. =) YIPPEE DOODLES.

and yesss packing tapes again! whahahah! It was good packing tapes again! like yes i know it;s packing TAPES?!?! like labeling them!? HUH. but yeah it was good! it was FUN! it was just MOOO-TASTIC! whahaha!

HAPPY DAY!

2009-10-17T08:27:00.000-07:00

kinda looking forward to teaching tml!!
Claire's B'dae!! WOOHOOO. but abit sad cos i didn;t get her a present! OH NO!!!! how now brown cow.

but yeah! still excited! the kids will ahve so mnay sweets! cos they will get a goodie bag each!!! EXCITING! and it;s so good when the lesson is WE CAN HELP OUR FRIENDS!

i think i slept too much in the afternoon till I'm abit high now.

2009-10-08T05:16:00.001-07:00

when the stars refuse to shine and time is no more...
You'll still be faithful, You'll still be faithful O Lord.

AMEN to that.

2009-10-04T07:33:00.001-07:00

i miss the days where i'm supervised. where i'm i guided, where i don't need to be taking responsibilty (at least not to such a stressing extend like now). miss the days where people would be willing to teach, and i mean teach properly. where there was encouragement instead of bleah bleah bleah.... whatever.

i miss the days even though there was SO MUCH teasing, i miss the days where we there was fun and work! and i feel efficient. i feel good doing work, i feel good being productive. i reallly miss those days.

tell me that i'm special even though i'm not.

2009-10-02T08:17:00.000-07:00

i can't believe i am depressed over growing up.

but but but!! it was totally a good time spent with my classmates!
totally.
gosh. loved it.

ten years down the road. looking at what people think. and whether they sld continue with media. omg. thought provoking. VERY.

you think TEP is a hurdle.. wait for the rest. bleah.

2009-09-25T05:56:00.000-07:00

i want two albums now... really really want

Jason Marz and Coldplay

any album will do.. and if you have the songs you could send them to me too!! =)

2009-09-04T06:07:00.000-07:00

it's scary how we ahve to grow up so fast.

freinds are going to uni, going overseas to study..... and not being there yet just makes me think, sometimes even worry, what willhappen when i am at that point in my life. having to really decide what i want to do, which uni i want to go to, and face reality.

soon, it will be going to work and supporting your family. GOSH so fast.

but yeah.. everybody's leaving!!!

2009-08-13T05:44:00.000-07:00

being caught in the middle SUCKS BIG TIME

totally hate it

It's not that i don;t wanna do it.. It's not that I'm acting busy so i won't have to do your task, it's even because I don't wanna do it.

but one party says no.. the other party expects it to be done. so what am I supposed to do?i don;t know.

2009-08-07T03:08:00.000-07:00

I'm so SO happy! =)

GREAT bowling event heheh! =)

and yes I am HOME before work normally ends. OMG. beleive it OR NOT.
daddy was nice to fetch me from Kallang Leisure Park after abit of blackmail and whining! but yeah he still fetched me no matter what. =)

super happy everything went well.
people enjoyed themselves.

and yes we interns ROCK! =)

just happy.

2009-08-01T06:24:00.000-07:00

liar liar pants on fire.

it's been trying these few weeks. i don't know why. but i still miss it. hehe...

ANYWAY!!! company bowling event is coming up!! WOOHOOO!!!!!
no1. aim is to get best player cos we get gold class tics.
aim 2 is to get best team..! WOOHOO!~ interns will ROCK IT MAN!

I'm kinda excited. hehe!! =)

2009-07-10T07:17:00.001-07:00

Ji Hoo is just so sweetttt! omg la... just giving up everything and having to rennnn...goodness gracious.

felt super pek today... really pek till i showed it. which i do kinda regret now... but yeah..till i went home and watch BOF and cried. like nonstop cos was sooo emo. it'sbeen a long time i felt this way and now i'm SUPER tired. so nights.

2009-07-09T07:33:00.001-07:00

dunno whyy... but i just felt like blogging.

work has been good. life had been good. everything has been good la.. not say the best.. but good. but then again when is one really satisfied hurhur.

after doing expense reports for 2 whole freakking days i think I've had enough of it already. i used to look forward to doing them.. now it's like...you mean i have't finished. though you think you are done... you are SO SO wrong. boohoo.

and after not walking up the 9 flights of stairs for so long.. and i did it twice on tuesday, my legsare super NUA now. like i was almost running up the stiars to meet my boss cos i forgot to take chrissy's brownies home.. and we needed it that night!!! so forgetful! but i'm glad he liked it... efforts paid off. but i feel super bad for my boss. like omg la.. boss waiting for intern! but yeah. thank you nice boss (as if she'll read this heehe). supper was fun too though chrissy was sleeeeepppinggg away. but nice catch up with same side! so long never talk to him! same side will always be sameside even though he's like how skinny now.

and yes josh's driving is getting better. though yes there's still the WHAHHAAHHA moments like reversing onto a curb.. but then aiya... manual car so forgiven. IMRPOVE!

and BOF is soooo nice!!!!! i love BOF. i like JiHoo!!!!!!!! though jie HATES him till he got more handsome and she (i believe) cannot bring herself to hate him anymore. so superficial ehh... hehe... and Jun Pyo is just funny. and sweet and cute. but JiHooo is PRETTY BOY! =)

okay tired from crapping.

2009-06-29T05:26:00.001-07:00

went early in the morning today to see the doctor and got a mc which I'm secretly very thankful for. resitng at home... lazing around, reading my book, watching mobtv, eating lunch as and when i like, playing guitar andddd SLEEPING. till daddy came home and blasted his TV.
almost opened my door to yell "not so loud please!!" but yeah didn't. instead, i on my 933 to drown the noise coming from the tv.=)

good catching up with yihui online. haven't been ahving time for her. cos we usually chat on msn. but then work and what nots all started and the whole chat to yihui on msn just... was gone?

but yeah boy am i glad to be healed. =)

2009-06-07T08:01:00.000-07:00

i must so blog about this...

was tlaking to Joel about burping.. and then ally sat beside us and showed some funy face... like SUper i-don't-know-what-she-is-doing face.... and then aunty christine asked "ally what face is that?" and she replied "that's my burping face" SUPER CUTE AND FUNNY CAN!!!! Burping face! WHAHAHA! I want to have one too!!!

oohhh!! and during Sunday School, Joel was so cheekying naughty. he wanted to write: PEEPEE on ZACH, PEEPEE on Ally. cos i told him i could burp his mummy's name.. but he couldn't. so to prove he could do something that i couldn't.. he said i can PEE my mummy's name. whahaha! AS IF PLEASE! so okay back to the storyyy..... he wrote "P P on ZACh" obviously he didn;t know how to spell P.E.E! super funny!!!

and then i told Zach and he kept laughing like nobody's business. and then Joel wanted to write PEEPEE on Matthias. but thennnn..... he couldn't spell Matthias! whahaha!!!

just cute little children! Allly says, "RAH.. i'm a baby dinosaur!"

2009-06-07T07:22:00.001-07:00

I want to go for a Business Trip TOOO!!!!!!!
even if it means going to malaysia (like next door) for filming......

2009-06-05T07:40:00.000-07:00

this week was a bit trying because some things just go wrong. not everything is perfect.

so anyway.. the song Bad Day was stuck in my mind the whole of thurs and fri (today).

until i remembered last week's sermon at NCC. really how important it is to listen to good stuff. and yeah.. just as i remember what was said last week...things got better =) Yippe!

2009-05-16T09:46:00.000-07:00

WtH is wrong with Grey's!?!?!?!

OMG!!!just as you thought the story was gonna ROCK my SOCKs! it SOOOO DID NOT!

ARGHH!!!1 what's best is i dun ahve anybody to go ARGHHHH with! cos nobody watched grey's! HAIKAL i watched 3 eps of Dollhouse so you better go watch Grey's. i DO NOT care! whahaha. demanding michelle ng. but OMG CAN!!!!!!

only if somebody in office is as crazy over it as i am.

2009-05-06T07:30:00.000-07:00

easier to ignore and run away than to be so caught up in it and be miserable. X)

2009-04-13T07:03:00.000-07:00

I do not see the need to share with you everything I know (willingly) when you do not do the same (even when forced).

to me.. I seem dumb.
to you, it's just... you being you.

2009-04-10T09:20:00.001-07:00

life's all about 3 words- I Don't Know.

2009-04-09T08:43:00.000-07:00

gentle now a tender breeze blows
whispers through a Gran Torino
whistling another tired song

kinda quite a very depressing show. esp the ending. (okay it;s always the ending parts that are sad in emoshows anyway...)
but yeah the song sounded so good at the last scene! =)

nowww i wanna watch knowing!!! (though it is freakking 2 stars only...) but WHO CARES> okay i did.. but NOT now. hehehe...

sometimes, honesty is notttt the best policy.

2009-04-03T10:40:00.000-07:00

sometimes when people dun get you or you dun get the other person. it erks me out.

like totally annoying/pissing to a certain extend (depending on who)

esp if you think the person understands what you are saying... but actually NO, they don't... and then that person goes on to tell another dudes. and one by one the msg passes and oh man everything is WRONG or exaggerated. wrong impressions being created. vicious communication chain.

first time i experienced it, i remembered to be REAL pissed about it. like REAL.

it;s not exactly the person's fault.. can also blame it on oneself for not explaining their own pov properly. tt's why now, if i find something to difficult to explain or the other party is just in a world of their own, trying to finish up your sentences, just give up and SHUDDUP..

Talking about the word "shut up" ahve heard so many versions of it! kinda funny

Jessica lui from Beach Ball Babes has her own unique style which jie fell in love with.

Some father's friend also had his moment of saying shutup. which was really quite amazing.

hehe

proves how important communication is.

okay anyway!! everybody's going into their internship ler! really really iskinda freakky,liek what do you expect? what is right or wrong to do in the company. what if you do something wrong. what if the people there are like CRAP? so many WHAT Ifs.. but what can you really do but just pray and know and confess, what yingxuan keeeeeppppsss saying, "Favour surrounds you like a shield". hehe AMEN to that! =)

2009-03-14T08:25:00.000-07:00

the light of no condemnation....

maybe that should be the first topic for our youth alpha session.. or even for the team ourselves.

So anyway, today was in a way good yet a bit saddening? Don't really know how to put it lurh. but yeah. Tml then see how.

so yeah i've been trying to do what i told myself not to do... and I guess it really feels much more better. like the guilt trip is off you. but whether i can stick to it is another thing. but yes by God's strength. =)

so true that it is your actions that what ppl see.. even if you do not mean for it to be in that manner, miscommunications do happen. it sucks but yes it happens.
same frequency? hehe.

2009-03-12T21:53:00.000-07:00

STUPID FRIDAY the 13th!!!
*okay I know it's ridiculous. but NVM!

I was all geared up, studying for the Final Theory Test which I have already failed twice. Physchoed myself into putting my heart and soul into the test, using up the whole 1 hr (though it only takes 1/2 hr the most to do the test so I won't regret again.
Studied Studied Studied, asked ppl to pray for me cos I desperately didn't want to fail again, it sucks to keep failing. esp when almost everybody passes the first time....

but now?!!?!?!?!

I know I fialed even BEFORE going for the test. dun need to ahve the fear of seeing that "FAILED" blue word after the test (see i can even rmb it is blue.. cos i;ve seen it TWICE already) but yeah. all cos I STUPIDLY, SILLY-LY GOT MY DATES WRONG
I ahve got no idea why i tot it was friday when it is wed!?!?!? which was two days ago.
CLEVER ME VERY VERY CLEVer...

kill me now. slaughter the pig man. deserves it.
AHHHH!!!!! I still cannot get over it. LOSERATED can!!

now i ahve to WAIT AGAIN. this time worse cos i've got internship, that means no time to go for the test/take lessons. AHHHH!!!!

2009-03-12T08:06:00.000-07:00

this is when you go "oh man i dunno what's going on and i dunno what to do"

one word to describe it is "LOST"

oh well.. updates,

internship is moreor less confirmed

office hours no weekends. something to thank God for i guess?

but i don't know if i create a good impression of me in their minds.

what i thought of/ influenced myself to adpt to is now ALL gone. time to adapt back to what it was before. sometimes it is not what you want but...

2009-03-06T05:05:00.000-08:00

@#*!(*@$)@%(#$*%@(%(%(@)!)#~!#&&!#&#^%(*$)@!_~!*$&#)!!!
whahaha!

gb was fun, seeing ms ho was good! =)
i'm happy!

2009-03-02T07:45:00.000-08:00

okay since i was asked to blog.....i shall blog about the AUTHENTICS!!!!

super duper miss them ALOT! liek seriously.

it was good catching up like the whole night with them literally.

squeezing on my bed. whaha sorry teresa for always hitting you!!!

but yeah it was fun fun fun! nice catching up.

everybody's growing up! internships and all.. goodness.

but it was kinda cool cos mel.cla.jin and me are all in poly's so we had a common topic to talk about. and mel's heels were OMG la. like PAIN!!!

teresa joined us later and we went to ahve somemore fun!

kinda enjoyed sitting on the road outside my house and just tlaking. enjoying the quietness and just the friends. finally we get to ahve a gb clique outing!! i;m guessing it will be long till we ahve one again.

i dunno what to think of it.

2009-01-22T21:47:00.000-08:00

currently, my brain is DEAD. literally.

sleeping at the wee hours is tiring but fun!
yeah i enjoyed doing the FAC(Film Appreciation Vidoe) yesterday. mainly because i finally found a song that suited the whole video.. and it fitted in so nicely...

how "i woke up this morning feeling kinda blue..."
how true.. the whole stress of FAC.. thinking if things will go well..
but after it, till now it's the same as how the song ends
"i woke up this morning feeling kinda NEW!"
Happy happy!=)

could tell Ms Soo was trying to encourage us.. but yeah what went wrong, or what we didn't do, is what went wrong. no amount of "it's okay" is going to fix it.. all you have to do is learn from it. but overall, it was a fun process.. i would love to go through such an expereince again. =)

it;s the end of school term.. for projects at least or "instructional weeks" as said in the time table.
but yeah.. doesn't feel like it at all!? the missing of friends, going to school.. IPPPPPPPPP is creeping into me. slowly. everybody's freaked out by IPP, like seriously.

2009-01-16T05:46:00.000-08:00

i was thinking of using the time to run away.

but now, i dun think i can anymore... maybe i'm not supposed to heh.

aiya whatever la

oh yes. anyway...

went for jie's shoot today!!

SO SO COoL!!!

I really really miss production.. and i;m kinda sad that the advice given to me is NOT to go into production again since i've already kinda got the experience of it.. but MANNNN... looking at how the cast acted, how the crew bonded along with the directors, i'm jealous!!! oh well...

and what more is i;m more of less done psycho-ing myself into giving up chruch and fellowship and go into production. just as when i was almost there, the advice given was to do the opposite. and to make it worst, the advice was actually GOOD advice (tt's why it means so much). URGH

now all i think is... why can't God just make all the decisions for us since His plans are always good for us.. then we don't have to go URGH like now... hehe... but yeah i know the answer..

2009-01-11T08:18:00.000-08:00

I'm really in a fix.
I don't know what i wanna do for internship.
Prpduction is gonna be REAL TOUGH.... but fun..
i'll get to see how production is done again. COOOLNESS..... but!!!
i'll miss my little kiddies in church, i'll miss juniors,i'll miss hanging out. and i think i can go join royston's sad,depressed,LONELY group. but yeah tt's the sacrifice.

the other is MDA, which is freakking far. if it were in Clarke Quay, i really wldn't mind. but now it is further than One North. NO WAY MAN!!!
but if i go to a office job, i'll get whatever i have to sacrifice for production

so yeah. i'm really in a fix
URGH!!!!!!

2009-01-08T08:17:00.000-08:00

2009-01-06T20:26:00.001-08:00

i'm totally in the whole royston tan mood now.

everything you hear/think has to do with royston tan. goodness the phase better pass fast.

2009-01-06T01:56:00.000-08:00

OH MAN! indeed i can proclaim how good my God is. =)

today was the film appreciation clinic

really you see God has been there. (though yes it is a school thing.. but hey.. I believe he helps His children which is ME!) so yeah good testimony time.

1. Cldn't Confrim Royston's attendance... so that was abit no.1 BIG problem. had to think of other guests to invite.. but yeah i was still hoping/praying/believing for Royston to agree.
AND YES HE DID! =)

2. the time/date. when royston can make it, we can't, when we can, he can't. so it was toally bugger it! and it was such a critical choice to make, cos when he can make it (which is today) will mean that we ahve to RUSH like mad.. but when we can, he needs to fly off. so yeah..
MS SOO AGREED AND WE GOT HIM DONE! CANCELLED All LESSONS JUST FOR ROYSTON!!! (not that i'm complaining ;P)

3. Money issue. Cos usually when he goes to schools to speak, he gets paid and an invoice would be sent to the school.. which means BIG sum of money that we cannot fish out of our own pockets to try cheat. hehehe.. so told them about our situation.. andddddd...
THEY WAIVED THE FEES!!! he understood that we were students and MEDIA students for that fact.. so he said okay dun need to pay.

4. FOOD. like we couln't find enough food. but yeah! ANA's brother helped us and we got a SPONSOR CATERER!!! and sarpino's! super double blessing when it came to food. and tt was the one thing we had to imrpove on from last yr cos last yr's Film Appreciation Clinic, feedback was food was not good enough. This time it had better be!!! =)

so yeah.. you can see how the Lord provided throughout this whole project. All that He has given. totally COOL! thoughout the whole project, kept being reminded that God is faithful so trust Him.. and yeah! He IS!!

and man royston tan was such a good speaker. really able to attract the attention of his audience. like one guy was SLEEPING right infront of him, but he managed to wake him up. Yr ones need to learn more discipline. like sleeping infront of the speaker is -.- enough. what more royston tan!?!?!?!?!? super wth.. but oh well, give them time to learn.

oh yeah one more thing to thank God for was the really cool PA, Sufyan. really appreciated all that he has helped us with.... for telling us "don't worry we have everthing under control" and yes when he came, he really did. like he is SUPER ALERT. SUPER. now you understand the role of the PA and it isn't easy. and yeah seeing him react in real life, i respect him now. really really not easy to be constantly watching out for a person. tt's what a PA has to do 24/7. he;s really a good PA i MUST say =)

pictures will come another time.

2009-01-04T07:32:00.000-08:00

Aren't afraid, aren't ashamed Lord we know who we are
We are your people and we won't be silent
Unified hear us cry at the top of our lungs
You our God and we will not be shaken

for now, I wanna thank God for the wonderful Sunday School teachers we had!
almost forgot how sweet and encouraging letters can be =)

2008-12-26T03:35:00.000-08:00

aiya. whatever la. what for care so much.?

2008-12-23T08:13:00.000-08:00

i just feel i need to blog about this.

so yeah last sunday was michelle and melissa's baptism. it was so heart warming! like seriously.. i don;t knwo why..but i cldn't stop crying. To see the love God has given them.. and they showing to to their family members. you just go AWWWWW.....

and yeah i'm touched by how sensitive Michelle was towards her dad and how you could just see the concern and love in her dad's eyes when she was tearing when he himself din know what to do cos his daughter was tearing. esp after you've heard about how God worked and is working in her life. well i pray along with her that her dad will come to know God as his personal Lord and Saviour.

i don't wanna say the story here cos it;s not my family.. and it might not be nice.. but yeah. all i can say is michelle really took the initiative to include her dad in this whole thing.very very important that her dad doesn't feel left out...

ppl ard must have been thinking what is this dumb women crying during a baptism! ain't it supposed to be such a happy occassion. but yeah.. when you are there and you know what is going on, i bet you'll cry too. hehe.

2008-12-19T09:19:00.000-08:00

"You have 35 new emails"

I saw that when i opened by msn and man i got a shock, thinking what cld school do to me with so many emails! when i opened it, all it had was the word "FACEBOOK" and then i quietly thank God that it had nth to do with school hehe... but still, IT WAS ALOTT OF DELETING!
tt's why you have Gmail which is only used for serious stuff (eg. alpha and kk) stuff that wld have minimal spamming or where spamming wld be welcomed.. and NON-JUNK mails.. so pls pls pls do not send junk mails to my gmail account.

but yeah.. so last night i was thinking about Camp before i went to sleep. and yeah i really really Thank God for seeing us throught... even during camp com meetings, the one thing i was worrying about was the spirituality level of the camp... like will camp com be focused just on running the camp or will we rmb God in whatever we do and do live our lives for His glory.. but for the pre-camp meeting, i was glad that He had everything in control =) Indeed all we had to do was to REST in Him. i was worrying about so much stuff.. (eg BUDGETTT) as jie wld put it... and man everything just kept coming. budget was like THISSS much (kept wondering how to spend so muchhh... hehe but i think we did in the end) or liek wld games be fun? and YES IT WAS!!! the planning for 4 hrs for the night game was totally worth it cos ppl enjoyed it! =) (or at least i hope they did)

The camp reminded me bout what Ms Ho said when i was in Gb running the sec 2 trainging camp.... which still now applies.. but it was much better this time.. like i din feel it that badly. =) Thank God.

she said how.. when you take up leadership positions you feel like you've just lost all your friends. true to a certain expect.. cos throught this camp i've alsosee how they can be there for you.. they care just that they dunno how to help.

the most memorable thing, would be seeing Juniors grow up. not just in size... but in maturity and in fellowship. like new people new other new people and cld clique quite well together. ppl who already had cliques took the effort to know ppl who did not really have any.. and cliqued together too! seeing the younger ppl looking out for one another... you'll just go like AWWWWW. heart wrenching. =) i just like seeing how ppl grow la.. as most ppl wld say it.

now the only question i keep asking is "how did you find camp? what is there to improve, just shoot cos we also wanna know how to improve.. or at least i do."

so yeah.. i tot camp would be more stressfull.. but ehy i actually enjoyed it (besides the worrying) like making drinks/mopping the floor till i BROKE the mop hehe... sleeping at like 3 in the morn and waking up at 7. waiting in your wet/smelly clothes for everybody to bathe first. HAVING YOUR SISTER TORTURE YOU IN THE CHAMBER POT!

but yeah..lastly, as i have said before, i wanna say again, i thank God for the seniors who are still here to help us. (this btw includes delia... she comes in no. 1 if i had to rank) but yeah different seniors helped in different ways. like they were always there, to help to give advice. man it was great knowing that there was somebody you cld turn to if you din know what to do.. or you need to talk things out.. and they won't go like "NO you cannot do that" but they'll go"okay good.. maybe can also considerrr......." it's so not filled with condemnation. i like.. or i LOVE! =) although some of them looked boredlikshit.. but nvm

and although we slept super little..cos of the late nights.. i liked it.. din really feel that tired.. and i thank God for the strength he has given to campcom. that i cld listen to the sermons and not miss out on revelational points. points that you just go OH MAN at. =) all i hope was campcom felt the same and not overworked. (which i think they do feeelll esp for the overowrked part) thank you camp com for working so hard!!! =)

but yeah dinner with some juniors today was fun! just hanging out with them.. the guys can be soooo blur and indecisive.. but really, they are the ones who bring the joy and craziness to juniors! =) they are thier leroy fan club.. hehe.. quote form what selena said "I know my angel is from the leroy fan club" you sld ahve seen the shock and ps-ness of leroy's face!! super funny!!!

also enjoyed the kaylong moments.. talking to yx and star gazing.. reminded me of last years camp com.. then the alpha meeting on the last day. made meeting much less stressfull =) environment does help.

in all i;m happy for camp!

2008-12-06T07:42:00.000-08:00

thank God for little JoJo who i can call anytime to go eat supper with me! =)

2008-11-29T05:10:00.000-08:00

remind me to never get into such a situation again, i should have known.

that day was just horrible. totally horrible.

you can feel the mood once walking to and walking away.
when ppl go ORH HOR when they mean it, not the joking kind. it's really terrifying. like OMG la.
when you have to face all the shit and still be nice, tt's Love and i can say i don't have a love that is as gracious as God's. so dun aspect me to be like that pls. it's enough shit to handle.

it was such a horrible day to go through, with those guys looking at you, with the feeling of being judged. and makes you feel like you are the BIG MEANIE. oh whatever. maybe I am. you just hope everything just ends, that the pressure if off you and you are able to feel FREE again. it makes you feel like just quitting and never wanting to do it again. never ever.

you know when ppl know the grace msg, yet somehow are not able to live it out and make other ppl feel condemned. you just wonder how can that be, the weekly dosage of the righteousness msg and yet it turns out that way. We'll i guess tt shows that nobody is perfect.

well God teach me how to forgive.

2008-11-16T07:08:00.000-08:00

oh yes you OH SO righteous, holy goody two shoes toot toot kueh.
whatever.

2008-11-13T23:23:00.001-08:00

okay after yesterday's indesign, i'm much happier! and royston tan pls pls pls reply me! i really hope we can get him!!! AHHHH!!!

I still get no shit out of IMC which is totally horrible. but nvm. hopefully after i read the Textbook it will be better. or maybe jiejie can tutor me on it. it's really horrible. not that i dun like the subject, think it is quite interesting. but just do not like the information is taught to us. like everything is everywhere.

oh yes, thank God I decided to print the report at home last night, if not we'll be late for submission today and ahve to skip lect. school print shops are crappy but cheap!

dunno why but i'm happy today! =)

2008-11-11T07:17:00.001-08:00

ruien and konglong's story is just so so so nice!

i'm so stuck to my channel 8 dramas ONCE AGAIN!

like some motivation to study again just like o's

where i tell myself i have to do my work if not ive got no time to watch. and now i;m filled with emotions again! it was SO SO SOOOO sad (that i just msged pj to tell ehr that eh?) whah..

ruien and konglong. i'm glad they'll get together at the end of the show. i must say konglong's quite annoying in the show. they sldn't ahve made hsi character THAT annoying, people must fall in love with his character more!

2008-11-11T00:16:00.000-08:00

does it really matter?
now i think i can 60% say that it doesn't
and i'm glad i'm slowly admitting that fact.

school was totally horrendous today. really do not like integrated mar comm. dun get any shit of out of it. everything is everywhere, totally loost during lects and tuts. john ho is so much more comprehensable. at least he answers the questios directly, so you won't need to guess if you are intepreting his answers correctly or not. this proves that the advertising line is really not for me, not that i am interested in it.

oh well.. and i realised we have ALOT of ICAs. it's amazing i can still go crazy over LOST. go to NCC every sunday, go to chruch for KK, even wanting to watch my 9pm shows again. amazing.
shows how good i am ay setting my priorities.

ok back to writing the dumb journal for family and youth work. dumb dumb dumb...

2008-10-26T06:06:00.000-07:00

once again i loved my sunday!

I especially loved playing with/teaching Joel. though it was indeed VERY tiring, esp when it's the bimbo (brain draining) game. BUT BUT BUT he was so cute!

it's a memory game and you either memorise orange or black.

and when josh was helping him, he whispered LOUDLY to memorise ORANGE and i was very cheeky and went "I KNOW WHAT YOU WANT LER!" then he'll [TRY] to tell josh to memorise black as subtally as possible but nahhh i still could figure it out! and He'll try his VERY BEST to memorise what he can, and he did really beat us to some of them! andandand the cutest part was where he really din know what to do and had to really ask josh to help him, like relying on a big uncle? whahahaa super cute pls!!! it was so fun trying to make him so desperate to win, but yet making sure he doesn't feel as if he wants to give up, so in the end, he won me EH. surprise surprise. OROROR when he'll put all his answers out for all to see or thinking very hard what to put, and i'll go 'peep' and cos he's thinking so hard, he was so slow to realise that i was cheating! whahah!

OH and he'll go "I WANNA PLAY AGAIN!" after the VERY long and draining round we just had.

and when it was my turn to help him, i realised how difficult it was! to memorise both black and orange!! GOODNESS, macham memorise everything eh?

and ALLY! "barney water!" or when i was asking somebody where chrissy was, she repeated after me "where is chrissy??" super adorable. or when she shares her panda biscuit or that round round i-dunno-what sweet.

I must say the two boys were very good at their board games. esp zach who like totally ALMOST trashed us lurh. and pls note that it was kinda his first time playing?? smart boys. and joel too! for his age, please that was a SUPER good job done already.

i'm glad they enjoyed themselves. all 3 of them. =)

2008-10-16T05:45:00.000-07:00

Okay, first week of school isn't that bad after all.
Missed the nights lessons we used to have in Year 1 Sem 2.
The times we would sit in koufu and rot/nua/stone/PLAY DIDEE!! =), or teaching them how to play bridge and winning all the itme with Nissa =) WHAHAHA

so anyway there were many many breaks. like 3 hr breaks cos most tutorials and labs were cancelled as the lecturers had no lectures to go through yet. so kinda did ALOT of waiting in school. But had time to catch up with friends which was good.

So far, Ms soo gave out the integrated projects already. Doing a Film Appreciation Clinic. Thought it would be quite cool, even deciding on how it could be different form other years, perhaps not just inviting the director/producer but the whole team? don't quite know yet.

Youth and Family work sounds quite fun, but ahve to do a weekly journel which is like -.-. totally. But oh well, at least we dun have any skit!!!

Thank God for the good Week in school.

While choosing which integrated Project today, was asking God to let us ahve the Film Appreciation Class one, it's easier. however only ONE group can do it and another group had already chosen it. But Yeah, I guessed it came to me how God will provide, and i could trust him. so Ms soo drew lots and WOOHOO we got it! =) somehow you know He will just be there for you. din really feel very jing zhang cos i know what He provides will be best.
After that, Ms soo carried on to say that hey it doesn't really matter what project we get but more of how you going to handle that project. Don't go back thinking how maybe i should have chosen that,or maybe the other one, but rather work well with what you have. Words of wisdom.
and maybe that's why i din feel so anal about getting Film Appreciation Class.
Just hope i'll Continue to put my trust in Him and that He will provide. AMEN.

Lastly, I HAVE A CRAVING FOR PRATA! CHOCOLATE PRATA in particular. don't even rmb how it taste like ler but i just wanna eat it. no idea why. hehe.

2008-10-12T07:17:00.000-07:00

WOOHOO! finally managed to play board games with jiejie. ut not the bimbo game, but guess she won't like it.maybe i like it THIS much cos the first timei played it it was with so much energy and highness with people around me, makes a WHOLE LOT of difference

BUT OH WELL!!! jie and i won a GAME together!!! WOOHOOO! first time ever. we lost first then won!!! =) yippee doodles!

and man.. Joel has been tlaking SO much now. like today i told him to come, and he walked over. SURPRISINGly enough... and then i said "sit next to me la" and HE DID!!!! GOODNESS RIGHT. thennnn i said "i wanna have a boy talk with you" and he NODDED. superly goodness gracious! however, i din know how to continue so i asked a dumb question "how old are you" but man i really din know. i thought he was like ermm... 6!? but nah... he's only 5.

and ALLY, "where is ally"and she'll pat herself with two hands and go "MEMEME!" adorable to the max man. =)

wonderful time spent in church.

hanging out with cousins was also good. at least we spent some time together. It has been such a long time since we spent time. will wait for Sara Chan to turn 21! =)

2008-10-03T09:15:00.000-07:00

WARNiNG: this post is all about complaining.

WHYWHYWHYYYY!!! was i so dumb to choose poly. omg. like hols are not when every other kids have hols therefore it really defeats the whole purpose of using the hols to ctach up with friends.

secondly, you miss church retreats! cos of internship. i;m still hoping some how some way a MIRACLE will happen and WOW, i will be allowed to take leave during internship.which is really quite impossible eh.

then i cannot go to Hillsongs conference AGAIN.bummer.

when everybody's having their hols, you are busy slogging your ass off to pass up the endless projects. oh whatever.

URGHHH! will history repeat itself? i wonder.

school's starting and i can cleary say i am least interested about it. even to the extend of being emo about it. but tt's life. accept it or fail.

2008-09-27T07:50:00.000-07:00

did i say how much i am in LOVE with the hillsong kids DVDs

currently listening to the "sermon" portion... so sweet. it really protrays how Jesus is every so loving, so caring.. so wahtever nice. That He is indeed your portion and he is BETTER tHaN ANYTHING in this world.

"have you ever though of jesus and you just ahve a BIG SMILE?"

and my answer is...

OF COURSE! many times in fact!

so taught KK better than life. screwed up ALOT of time here and there esp the last part. but i can say that i know that God was there and the kids were really worshipping. I loved how the kids kinda danced "freely" so they won't be so conscious of their behaviour. I think tt's what i got out from the hillsong kids dvd, just looking at how the worship leaders just dance freely, enjoying themselves in the presence of God yet having reverence for Him. totally cool.

2008-09-26T10:16:00.000-07:00

I'm totally addicted to watching the hillsongs kids video!
super nice!
so feel like teaching KK all the songs. but nah.. it's too chim.

maybe Super Strong God will be next. such a lovely song.

God you're amazing, the heavens declare
Glory and power none can compare
I look in wonder of all you have made
oceans and mountains speak of your name

Creation shouts of You

Super strong God You love me
Super strong God You made eveything
so beautiful

2008-09-12T09:05:00.000-07:00

it's 12.05 but somehow i can't seem to feel tired enough to go sleep.

so anyway! I'm quite worried/stressed for the tuition kid. like PSLE is in 2 weeks!? and there are so many things he still doesn't know. and this is when you realise that quanlity is so much more important than quantity. He has this mindset (along with his mother) that the more you do, the better you become. and Yes i do agree with that... but that only applies if you knwo what you are doing. He gets the same few questions wrong time and time again till it gets abit annoying. And when he gets it wrong, he doesn't want to pay attention the corrections. He's more interested in getting that GREEN pen for corrections then getting it right this time.-.-
We'll maybe i was once like that too, though now i hope i sure wasn't like that.
All i can do now is pray pray pray. gosh.

Going to ask KK teachers tml for the Verse which says that if you sin you dun fall under God umbrella anymore. Interesting to know what they have to say. It's so true that when we teach from a material, we just follow it blindly or not. and we put so much trust in the material that everything they write is correct that we ourselves forget to check it with the bible. and that'sthe scary part of teaching in church cos I'm sure you don;t wanna teach the kids the wrong stuff. At least for me.

2008-08-29T08:39:00.000-07:00

jogging with daddy is like -.-
but i did it. and my muscles ache!! like nuts!!

holidays are here and once again I'm not putting my time into good use.except for those tuitions. Tuition. i used to LOVEEE all my tuitions (maybe except chinese...) but then i still do love them. i think at some point or another,i don't knwo how, but my 2 hrs of tuition for each sub became so fast! like now that i tutor the kids 1.5 hrs and he is already like wanna die wanna die like that.. i wonder how i went through so much. i remember Michele Tan coming to teach me for like as long as she liked and i would still go on... how my sec sch tutors will give me the 2 hrs and it went past so fast. totally cool! how I began to take tuition so seriously that i told myself not to do sch hw during that time, but only those that i didn't know. how i would do all the work even though my tutors din ask me to. and lastly, how nat wld remind me about the 800 bucks. whahahha.

well i just love my tuition days. and i must say my teachers suffered much. after teaching the kid, man there must be lots of patience in my tutors. hehe...;P! and i've learnt some tips form them like how paul would buy sweets for me to eat during tution to wake me up. whahahah! it helps, both me and the kid =)

2008-08-17T06:47:00.000-07:00

there is a limit to everything and i think i finally reached mine today.

Jie's birthday celebration was kinda fun. I loved the part where the ppl staying over just kept on taking dumb photos with mac book. total coolness. and that was after the kinda solid 1 hr of studying. yeah not much but at least we did. Drank Earl Grey with Yingxuan, glad she liked it! and so did Yiwen! she's so funny! =)

it was good fellowship, good organised and non noisy fellowship!

though studying today was abit of a errrrrrr..... but nvm.

2008-08-07T04:28:00.001-07:00

Multi cam was like shit. But I'm still hoping for that A. but I know it is kinda impossible.
BIG FAT HOPE hurhur...

there goes my stright A's for Multi cam.
what a way to end the school term. -.-

2008-08-05T07:15:00.000-07:00

DELEGATE
hahaha.. one thing I think I have to try...

was reading my notes.. and it said how delegation was not just letting other people do the work, but also trusting that they will.. and i guess that is the hard part. cos once you don't, you'll end up doing it yourself too... so then it isn't delegating the work anymore.

I guess many times it's not the amount of work that makes me stress but the worrying!!

so yeap kk back to writing notes

2008-08-03T08:38:00.000-07:00

Well thank God for such a great day!

I had fun and i guess the rest did too!

MAMEE Moodles!!! whahaha so cute little smelly ally where's your belly, just like jelly. =)

andddd!! i so climb a tree today! have been wanting to do it. and i finally got a opportunity. and man.. I actually was like a girl! gosh. super maluating. but i glad i did it =) the HUMP was so tough.. and the fact that i kept laughing din allow me to use more of my muscles (if i do have any). so yeap. but yeah finally got to the top. and never wanted to come down. like goodness FINALLY.

and there were 2 kids whom i did not know at ALL. and they were like soo cute pls. encouraging me to go.. saying it's easy.. dun worry. felt sooo bad!! cos they were so waiting for me to FASTER get up.=(

but oh well. the point is i actually climbed it! =) YIPPE DOODLES!

cheap thrills of life! that's what I like!

and man. I really do want the chords to Sing to the Lord. i really do. i can't find it anywhere! searched for it on all the websites. but nahhh not available. and jie's asleep so she can't help and nobody else knows the song. =( and because of that, I can't sleep.

oh well! HAPPY DAY! =)

TEACHER: Millie, give me a sentence starting with 'I.'

MILLIE: I is..

TEACHER: No, Millie..... Always say, 'I am.'

MILLIE: All right... ;'I am the ninth letter of the alphabet.'

2008-08-02T07:55:00.000-07:00

OH MAN!
nice bath! i feel good/better now

anyway last night i had a really good dream once again. =)=)=)
din wanna wake up.. or maybe i did since i was so happy!!

so anyway today was kind TIRING... but fun i guess

and man when i saw Claire Claire sing "Jesus Loves Me" all i wanted to do was really STOP singing.. and yeap.... you see how she was soooo concentrating on singing it.. and especially when it is such a simple song, with simple actions, one which she will not get confused with. Man, just seeing her worship. =)=)=)!!!

and i guess teaching My Best Friend Jesus was fun!! especially when we had a comeptition with the teachers! the kids REALLLY sang, or should i say SHOUTED their "OH YEAH", which lead them on to shout "my best friend" and with style somemore! so happy!!!!

and good time spent talking to sameside though i din get to do any work.. but man.. i would rather talk then do homework. anytime.

2008-07-30T08:32:00.000-07:00

I'm glad I'm back to going for bible study again.
we ahd like a months break.. and coudl feel something was missing.
but yeah i'm glad it's back. and now there's jiejie too! =)

for now, i'm content.

OHOH! and ghe wlak to Sungei Road was AMAZING! and tiring! DUHER!
under the HOTHOTHOT sun.but at least we din call for a cab to find out formt he driver that sungei road is just ahead! but it sure was a long long walk...
and now i know that form bugis area, I have 107 home!! =)

it wasn't what i imagines it to be.. so much more oldish and really, there's nothing much to buy.although there was this old uncle selling an ipod 80GB for like 200 bucks!? yeah.. and i must say... the merchants there were really quite nice. the perosn we interviewed was soooo sociable!

and yeah.. we interviewed this 15 yr old AM guy.. and think he was totally FREAKED out by us! kept taking steps back, liek getting further and further away from us.. and he told me "sorry i don't understand you" -.-!!!!

overall, it was kinda a good experience. if not of sungei road, then with my friends Olivia and Haikal. =)

2008-07-26T07:55:00.001-07:00

Psalm 23

The Lord is my shepard; I shall not want.

He makes me to lie down in green pastures

I will fear no evil, for you are with me

Surely goodness and love will follow me

okay yeah. I'm supposed to teach psalm 23 for sunday school tml. happy happy! =)

and yeah they gave the kiddy version of it. and it's so simple and nice

The Lord is my shepard.

He gives me all I need.

He gives me rest.

I will not be afraid.

He loves me.

I'm glad I'm teaching this! This month's bible stories have been challenging but nice. It's no longer the easy God made this and that... but actually bible stories story. some of which i dun even know! OPS.....

2008-07-20T07:22:00.000-07:00

Today Aunty Jee Nee asked us, sunday school peeps, to share about our lives. WOW...
and yeah.. the first comment was "A levels" and then the next was poly dudes relax la...
so yeah. kinda not the very true.. but after listening to them I think it is true, but not 100%. Yes they do feel more stressed and pressure, but poly dudes do to. It's not exactly as relaxing as it seems or appears to be.

so anyway.. the whole class was like STRESS STRESS STRESS, I cannot do this i cannot do that. so yeah imagine the mood. We were rating our stress level form 1-10, everybody was like at 7 ish? some even said 10 was suicide.. It came to my turn and i din quite wanna talk about stress cos like EVeRYBODY talked about it... wanted to sharemore about hope.. but i guess it din quite come out? like just wanted to skip my turn.

and once again, i feel the need to be praying and being there for my peers. Sometimes we focus so much on the needs of other ppl that we forget the people in our class kind? yeah...

so yeap sunday school buddy, I will be praying for you. and continue to trust in God, not only for your A's, but also what you're going to do after that! =)
anyway, i think design is cool for you! well, pray about it.

2008-07-18T04:23:00.000-07:00

okay Jie Mummy and Daddy are back.

NOISYYY to the max!

ok so anyway, grades ahve been like oh my goodnesss!!!!

Journalistic writing all i hope for is a B. cos currently all I have are C's.

ah whatever.

2008-07-14T07:24:00.000-07:00

SPSS was so tiring today! all the numbers.1.3.2.4.5.travelling,home....gosh!skip one next.
goodness gracious.
and finally we did the 130++ surveys! =) WOOSH!

next we have to figure out how to do the graphs.-.-

oh well jiejie's coming back tml!=) along with mummy and daddy.
and yeahhh..I realised that I haven't watched a single movie for like almost a month or more? that's really long considering i'm a media student.
so anyway..

I don't think I'm pissed? maybe just disappionted (just tested my china kid how to spell that and he still din know -.-) oh well it's all a MAYBE. but it's time to forget it and snap back to reality.
sometimes it's really nothing else but disappiontment.

OH and i got my first ever DDDDDD for school. it's 10% of the total grade for the module.. but still.. goodness la!!!! got a freakking D. first thing the lecturer said was "you din study this time ah"... but i did. just that what i studied din come out.. and the video was so AM-ish i couldn't catch it. sadly. video tests and me do not click. and honestly i couldn't even remember what we did for the test tillsomebody said Video. haha.
oh well it;s time to buck up. no more C's. going to get back multi cam on wed... freakkkyyy!! =)

2008-07-12T05:03:00.001-07:00

Well I'm happy.

for my multi cam that is.

although had so much difficulty firstly for getting the talent. then getting the host.

super headache.

but yeap indeed God is faithful... and yeah I'm kinda hoping we get an A for it.

He works in way we cannot understand... and yeap really when you see Him providing for you, you'll just smile! =)

so really... i wanna thank God. =)

2008-07-07T07:11:00.000-07:00

it's so freakking obvious.
so don't try to hide it.

2008-07-06T09:15:00.000-07:00

Friday is officially our Embarrassement Day.
goodness the amount of times we produce such bad presentations all end on fridays.
and i'm speaking on behalf of Sharon Chan, my Vice president of the club. who is also known as the pro! =)

yeap.. but i Thank God how by friday we will all be super tired out.. yet he gives us so much fun and joy even though it's the embarrassement day for us. whaha... but we enjoy it lurh. sometimes you just need to ahve a good laugh at yourself.

yeah.. but today was kinda like -.-
I have got no idea why it turned out like that, but it did. just when you though all was going well... Super din want it to be like that, but it just had to be. just couldn't concentrate during worship.. esp when the lyrics of the songs today just were so...... (ok i don't wanna continue) but oh well... thank God in all cirsumstances right? dunno how.. but yeah.

Thanks Yingxuan for encouraging. Thanks Emily for helping me out.

ok... and went for lunch. Decided to just HECK. (in a bad way or good way i myself do not know.)

yeah I'm glad for the good lunch. helped me to keep my mind off stuff and yeap 'LOSER of the LOSERS!!' whahaha! was really fun. and i wonder HOW Embarrassement Day from school could drag all the way to lunch! was so maluated at how they super throw face-ly asked for a discount! whahaha. super -.-. but yeah the next time i bring my friends, there will be NO SERVICE CHARGE!! WOOHOO!. okay i better thank you all for the maluation! Hopefully the rest enjoyed theirselves too!

It's time to realise that I can do nothing, only God can.
I just hope i ain't being ignorant about the situation but really trusting in God.

and well Happy Birthday Chrissy.
This is for you.

So You Think You Can Dance?!

2008-07-02T07:45:00.000-07:00

nice?! i cooked it myself. went grocery shopping today cos there was no more food left for dinner. WOW. The market wasn't open andi wasn't willing to buy one weeks worth of food form cold storage cos it;s super ex, comparing to the market.

So I decided to cook the pasta! and wow doesn't it look great! at least it looks much better than jiejie's pasta. See the difference??

2008-07-02T02:19:00.000-07:00

You know what? Some people might not turn out to be as bad as they seem to be. Sometimes it's just due to lies form other people or a preconceived idea of the person...
and though the particulary guy knows that he's not what people perceive him to be, he just keeps quiet and swollows it.
However the truth will come out one day and when it does, other people will go 'OH MAN...."

how easy it is to misunderstand people or to even create a misunderstanding yourself.
Well, is not saying anything when you know something considered a lie?

2008-06-29T03:57:00.000-07:00

All About God
God is great
God is awesome
God is holy
God is wonderful

God is big
God is mighty
God is worthy
God is powerful

Glorious, Wonderful
Strong in us
Everyday.

Am so very in love with this simple song. Can't help but mean everything about Him.

2008-06-27T09:13:00.000-07:00

First complain.

Jiejie, your electric guit's last string broke! and I can't play

Secondly, there is no cable! even more how to play?

This is really quite saddenning... was so looking forward to it.. to open it so gently and find out that OMG.... I can't play it! URGH

and to top it off, little grace cannot remember who i am already. and she seems very clingy to uncle wilson eh. and he was so nice to say he'll wake up at 8.45 to say goodbye to me cos i will be in church the whole day and can't say bye to them. i secretly hope little Grace will wakey early too and play with me!!! =)

2008-06-24T02:21:00.000-07:00

I guess it's when you least expect something then will your disappointment be minimised. The higher your expectations, the greater the disappiontment. (doesn't apply to all cases I suppose)
Sometimes you have such high expectations cos you know you'll do well... on the other hand.. it can just be wanting something, which you know you'll never get. Come to think of it, that's actually wishful thinking.

2008-06-22T09:15:00.000-07:00

oh man i really hope aunty lilian can make it...
this one is really up to God ler. can't do anything else.
her story is the best... i can already think of what to interview her... how easy is that.
but URGH... why must adults work.. (okay tt's a dumb question)

2008-06-20T04:03:00.000-07:00

I totally loved retreat.
it was kinda different form the rest, very reflective for me... more of a quite retreat. not the BOOM BOOM BOOM kind....
and yeap I believe God has smth installed for the youths la..

Jie called last night and we had a good chat, or at least i think so. :P

oh and daddy's back to listenting to his loud music now the house is fully done, and listening to MY ALBUM. hahaha when someboday gave it to me i totally thought "this is soooooooo daddy" and indeed, he loves it. =)
they'll be leaving on monday and it'll be Home Alone for 3 weeks. but at least they are bringing jie back. and the house is like a house now, with my tv and the big wide computer screen whioch tire my eyes out cos i ahve to look from left to right all the time... blame it on the small eyes and not the big screen! =)

2008-06-11T19:21:00.000-07:00

Scare you with the worst first. tt's the outside tiles. looks better now? all cleaned up le.

This is mummy's pink pink room. okay la the pink's not supposed to be so light.. but it turned out like that on the photo.

This is the wonderful jamming room jiejie. It's 3 walls yellow and 1 wall red. BRIGHT BRIGHT. ok there, your one wall red.
like the yellow colour?
THe dining room. SUPER nice. I like. ooh! and see the BIG tv? they shifted it there.
This is the new Piano carpet. Think it's abit small though.

and I have no idea why this pic was in my camera. but at leats now i get Deborah when she says Smelly Joshua. i understand now.

and jiejie says (after looking at this pic) "PLEASE DON'T LET HIM INTO OUR BEAUTIFUL HOUSE"

2008-06-08T08:39:00.001-07:00

poeople do change all the time. what we used to like may not be what we like now, your character, even the looks eh. the only issue is how often one changes. whether it is a good or bad change can be subjective, though some changes are like DUH good or bad.

oh well.

2008-06-08T05:52:00.000-07:00

ok first things first. sorry gb peeps for not going for the clicque outing last night =(
and sorry Melinda for not replying your msg regarding the outing on Friday night.
another time kk.. yesterday really wasn't good timing. but still glad you all had fun =)

ok alpha weekends was cool cool COOL! love it =) I'll save you on the details.
and man I love guitar hero!!!!
totally accdicted to it... i want one too! (in my dreams eh..)

2008-06-05T19:20:00.000-07:00

The nice bar counter jiejie! oh yes see the mustard yellow wall?

2008-06-02T07:11:00.000-07:00

JIE!! look at the tiles i chose for the outside floor. nice?

I sure hope so!!

Once you sit on the chair, you'll be sitting among the clouds.

okay this is the walkway of our house. look at the nice black tiles.. was too lazy to tilt the photo for you.

Jie, this is just ONE SMALL PART of the messing big fat house. Be glad you have no part in this.

2008-06-01T00:38:00.001-07:00

Excessing Viewing: compulsive viewers who use TV as a distraction.
these people use TV as an escape from unhappy lives or unhappy parts of otherwise tolerable lives. They watch TV to make themselves better when sad, upset or worried.

wow. didn't really see watching TV from this point of view.
This makes me think why i am so in love with watching tv. Especially my channel 8 shows.
but nahhh.. I don't think i watch tv because of the above reasons.
but I agree it helps you take stuff off your mind.

2008-05-31T02:55:00.000-07:00

Before The Throne Of God Above
Charitie Lees Bancroft, Vikki Cook
Key:
Verse 1:
Before the throne of God above,
I have a strong, a perfect plea,
A great High Priest whose name is "Love,"
Who ever lives and pleads for me.

Chorus 1:
My name is graven on His hands,
My name is written on His heart;
I know that while in heav'n He stands
no tongue can bid me thence depart.
No tongue can bid me thence depart.

Verse 2:
When Satan tempts me to despair,
and tells me of the guilt within,
upward I look and see Him there
Who made an end to all my sin.

Chorus 2:
Because the sinless Saviour died,
my sinful soul is counted free;
For God, the Just, is satisfied
to look on him and pardon me.
to look on him and pardon me.

Verse 3:
Behold him there! the risen Lamb,
my perfect, spotless Righteousness,
the great unchangeable I AM,
the King of glory and of grace!

Chorus 3:
One with Himself I cannot die,
My soul is purchased by His blood;
My life is hid with Christ on high,
with Christ, my Saviour and my God
with Christ, my Saviour and my God

think this is just a beautiful song! like i had it in my com for who knows how long ler... but then last night, i chanced upon it, and i realised that hey.. the lyrics are beautiful.

2008-05-29T09:51:00.000-07:00

i am so having trouble writing my 50 word peer appraisal per member now. mental block.

and how do you put everything in a diplomatic way. and oh did i say how i so feel as if I;m writing the same points for everybody just in a different sentence structure. gosh.

it suddenly reminds me of how teachers would write in our report books. just that their job is much much much easier. it's just like 2 sentences the max?!

2008-05-29T02:48:00.000-07:00

okay 2 down, 3 more to go.
and the 3 more are studying ones eh. MUG michelle, MUG.

So anyway! multi cam and Journalistic writing are gone!!! =)
YIPPEE! though i got abit freaked out by multi cam. i hope there will still be the A. i really want that A for my multicam. REALLY do. and if i get A for JW too.. then WOW. i'll be a super duper happy pig! =) well just leave the rest to God. and yes indeed, He is faithful =)

so anyway. back to doing projects.

2008-05-28T07:55:00.000-07:00

once again..
I think i wld rather be pamperd than me independant eh.

yes although being independant can be really quite cool at times. but then... there are times when being pampered is better. okay maybe not pampered but knowing that there is somebody there to help you.

call me pampered. whatever. I don't really mind.

2008-05-25T17:34:00.000-07:00

you know sometimes you just feel all tensed up infornt of certain ppl...
i guess that's what i am feeling now.
but nvm whe i see all my kids.. it just fades away. they are one grp of ppl whom i think i will never ever feel stressed infront.

but oh well i thank God for sustaining me through.
and Thank God for Yingxuan who kept reminding me about God's favour all the time.
thanks nia.. though i know i might have seemed like whatever...

oh during alpha we tlaked about what is so special about prayer...
and i guess to me, for now, it is being able to mumble thoughts to. AND i don't have to go through great pains explainging this and that... cos I'm really not good when it come to being diplomatic.
and God is one person whom it's so easy to say I love you to and say thank youfor so many things He does.

2008-05-25T05:14:00.000-07:00

OH MAN!

tried to learn HAPPY DAY on the guit.... like plucking and not the chords. COONLESS

though i still can't get the verse... but i so like the sliding for the bridge.. totally COOL!

oh man! jie, hurry send back your electric guit for me to try please!!!!

oh and it just came to me today that hey.. hols are 2 weeks away!?

just as when we were getting into the mood of school.

i guess the next erm is going to be madddd cos we only have one ICA for each module this term. and usually a module has got 4 ICA's.

oh and it was funny to see a youth trying to teach the aunties Happy Day! (it's a very youth song btw.)

totally hilarious.
was having KK debrief and heard the song..so looked out to see.. and then all the aunties faces were like "0.o I don't get the song" and the youth trying his very best to get things going...
superly funny!

2008-05-20T07:25:00.000-07:00

the weather is just sooo.. HOT HOT HOT!
Having the aircon in my room is not even enough. i have to have the fan blow right at me.
gosh. save me.. and when you feel hot and sweaty, you get irritated. Get irritated and you can't do your work. Can't do your work properly and you feell irritated and then HOT again. such a vicious cycle eh!

well, renovation of the house has been postponed for one week.

OHOH and the secondary school kids are going to ahve the hols. just when all the projects are coming up. once again, save me!!

2008-05-17T05:24:00.001-07:00

okay today.
had the farewell for Aunty Giselle during KK. it was like how sad lurh.. esp when it was after such a good skit she did. she really has that gift from God with kids eh! looking at her passion, how much she has given to KK and the kids, how much love she has shown, how much joy she has brought, man.. to see her leave was like WHAT?! it was such an emotional moment.
and how true.. she affects the people around her alot.especially her kids. faithy was all so sad to see mummy cry and hugging her.. could tell gladys was too but being older she didn't dare show. but aiyoooo.. so touching can. and faith will try to comfort the mummy... i think if i were aunty Giselle i would cry even more!!! and after praying for the family, Aunty Giselle actually prayed for KK. I guess mist people would just accept being prayed for.. but never think of praying back. Could really see her heart for KK. gosh.

and wow the kids have grown.. today's KK was good.... just sitting at the back and observing the kids, thinking how they have grown. it's goodness gracious me. and after Debrief, managed to talk to samantha alot.. and well she talks ALOT!!! never seen this side of her so much.

2008-05-15T08:12:00.000-07:00

oh man.. school.
multi cam rehersal todayy.. SCARRRY but fun! =)
I'm glad we could try things out. and get a hang of stuff. really woke me up from the tiring day. esp from the nodding of head from mr azhar lesson. not that he was boring.. but i was too tired.
and ms soo was nice, cos she knew we had 2 hours of lect before that and 2 hours of tut before lunch. a LONG LONG day.

OH! and i so look foward to the cheap cheap nuggets at the South Canteen after multicam. really need food to pamper yourself after a stress day.

Marked script, I'm so going master you.

2008-05-12T09:00:00.000-07:00

I think it's time to slow down and concentrate on things I need to or things I should.

I'm starting to feel the difference between a yr 1 kid and a yr 2 dude. It's a BIG FAT DIFFERENCE. presentations are no longer the this and that.. just giving brief information.. but actually looking into it. analyzing, finding good points and how you link them to your case.. and like knowing EVERYTHING of the project. like gosh..

got 1 out of 10 for the dumb newspapar test. but journalistic writing was quite fun. esp when the teacher was tlaking about the case and we ahd to quickly jot down all the info he was giving. tt was Fun!.. =) and I'm quite worried about multi cam. things dun seem to be working out right.. and i;m kinda pissed.

and oh did i mention how much i dislike people not turning up for group meetings. oh please... (@#&%($#&%($#&% oh whatever.

2008-05-06T08:28:00.001-07:00

oh man oh man oh man..
last nights dream was hahah kinda funny yet nice. surprise surprise. I wish.
heh

so anyway!
I'm watching house!! It's so much the guy version of Grey's Anatomy. less romance, relationship-y stuff.. but enough to keep me going. Well DrHouse is just so much. I guess it's more cool compared to GA when it comes to the medical terms. and how House would come out with his conclusions.. and most of the time, he is right. MOST of the time.

I really quite do wish it comes true ehh.

oh man.. when it comes to surprises or what nots, i always tend to fail eh. once again michelle ng didn't succeed! but then nearly got fooled by my cleaver msg!! NEARLY =) and i am SO NOT LAGGG!!!! I am not!! my phone is.